February, who knew?

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Well, January has already escaped my grasp and I don't deny the pleasure of it at all.

This past month has been both negative and very positive, however I feel I've tackled it much more strongly which I'm extremely proud off.

Although some days, I have come out feeling rather exhausted, it's been utterly blissful that every ounce of exhaustion has been admired.

Yesterday evening, I had taken my pen to paper and I simply wrote down "It's so wonderful to have pain but be in control of it''  Which if I'm being honest, sounds absolutely ludicrous but it does everything to make me smile.

I've only ever known pain that belonged in my body but it was driven by somebody else's hands, so when I suddenly recognise that the eyes and hands I now direct belong to me, I feel my heart literally swell up due to my new sense of self. 

As for my New Years Resolution, well I think it's going rather swell and for the first time it seems more do-able, especially with my frame of mind.

For once, I feel I can take on so much and it's beyond exciting.