Firstly, my mind has been bursting with creative ideas mostly: story lines, video ideas, future plans etc, etc. Now one of the downsides to me being so creative is that my anxiety doesn't quite let me jump as fast I wish, how ever slowly I've been exploring a little more and embracing the feel of change.
Last week was a rather nervous week for me, I'm very social anxious and being asked to go some where to do an interview, made my insides churn like you wouldn't believe. It was all arranged very suddenly, which luckily for me was in a way quite positive. How ever the outcome wasn't exactly enjoyable - I ended up arriving at Z building for the interview and saw my biggest fear: A HUGE CROWD OF PEOPLE.
What was worse was that I was forced to sit in the middle of it all and wait for my name to be called. It's safe to say, throughout the wait, I felt like throwing up and removing my eyeballs from their socks. When the interview finally came to an end, I couldn't have left the building any quicker - since my Mum was completely aware of my anxiety, she thought it would be best for me to see my Dad and have a quick natter to gather my confidence back up.
So trotting a couple of yards over to my Dads building, we arrive in the small cafe and I am immediately greeted by a wide window which gives me a beautiful view over my little town.
So after staring at the ever changing weather, me and my Mum decided to finally hit home, where my Dad would shortly be following us.
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For the next couple of days, my mind was mostly focused on a little idea I have been wanting to create for my YouTube channel. Some of you may know that next month is November (obviously), which is anti-bullying month: in support I would like to create a video, full of content to support this crucial situation. I began to bubble with thoughts and then suddenly, a small idea came to me. How ever it is not enough at the moment and lately, I've been having too many moments that quite frankly, I start to get lost in them and my mind empties them all.
Next for my writing, I have been turning towards writing about a small holiday which will soon be arriving, that's right Halloween. I am one of the many few girls who adore a spooky and scary theme, and sometimes I like to take it a little too far. As an amateur author, I want to expand my writing skills in all genre's and subjects, (including Horror): I love the thrill, I love the small buzz and I love the masses of emotions I feel surrounding the subject. It's adrenaline that makes me go utterly bonkers.
Secondly, can I just babble on in a paragraph about how much I adore Autumn: I love that despite the dullness which surrounds the country at this time of year, our land manages to glow such radiance. Nature blossoms in a way I can't quite define or understand but it's something I could watch for hours and hours.
Our world is capable of changing colours with only the help of dark, light and our entire eco-system. It's magnificent but I will stop there because I'm sure my blog doesn't want to turn into a science lesson.
Very soon, I am determined to take a wonder for as long as I can and have my camera with me - I just want to photograph every thing in sight and have a look at what nature has built us. Mmm.
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That's it for now, I'm about to jump off and prepare myself for a lovely night sleep, along with writing some more ideas down whilst watching a couple of my favourite you tubers :)
TARA - R x
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