October Ends.

Well hello there readers of the internet.
I guess the time has come to note down the small changes within the months that have passed and just yesterday in fact, the month of October has reached it's end.
How ever the month has only just ended, the only thought my brain can quite think about right now is how insanely quick the time seems to be passing.
Before we know it and (I know, every one will hate this but it'll soon be christmas(
Although I know myself I have infinite time on my hands, the speed of which it is going at is making me rather paranoid. Although I'm doing a lot myself, I don't feel I'm doing enough simply because I feel I am not using my time wisely enough.
On the other hand, If I try to squeeze in any social events or ideas, I will implode and disintegrate and then I would most likely have to live inside a jam jar. 

(although being sweet for the rest of my life sounds quite nice)

Any who the month of October is always quite overwhelming for me, (no not because it's halloween)but because it was my 20th birthday. I'll be honest, it was a little different knowing that I would no longer be in my teens and I felt like I was truly GROWING UP. I've spent my childhood growing to a silly extent because of certain problems and situations but this how ever, was entirely different. I was SO excited but the feeling I was given a long with the day was just very out of this world and even though days have passed since my birthday, I still can't put an adjective on it.

On the note of my recovery, my Mum made me do things I haven't ever done before and in ways, I certainly did take a massive disliking to her when they occurred. I was a total train wreck and my moods were shattered for days. How ever, the changes have been made and my limitations have heightened as well as my hopes, so here's hoping these have a positive effect to my future.

I guess this month has been a very influential and significant month in many ways, although some I'm not entirely certain of yet. Here's hoping I'll find out soon.

- R x