Nostalgic.

It is that time of the year again where I find myself pondering on the past, only I don't usually spend my time thinking about the past year I have lived but more of the years I lived when I was very young. 

I find my most wonderful years when I was very naive and misunderstood and whilst I think it was poor of me to be like that, I also wish I could have it back. Although people mention a lot that it is rather silly of you to focus on the past with such sincerity, I find it almost imperative that I thank myself for having those I did in the past because some I no longer I have now. 

Although one thing that I'm fairly proud off; a thing which has occurred in the past year, I have been capable of thinking of only myself when it comes to my happiness. When it comes to personal satisfaction, I look at only myself and nobody else. 

That has been the greatest achievement I've had for over 9 years, as I spent that time worrying about everybody else.

I know to others it doesn't seem very significant but for I , it is so bloody wonderful and I most likely will remember it forever.

As for future optimism, I don't have a great deal because I have decided it is better to concentrate on today and only tomorrow. I have no power over the next day or the next because it hasn't happened and I have given it no thought. So whether I do something brand new, create something wonderful or do something I never thought I would, here's to letting it happen when it may and not letting my newly formed decisions predict them or perhaps steer me in that direction.

It will happen how it may happen, whether it is tomorrow or next year.

Thanks to what I have and thanks to what I have achieved. 2013 hasn't been so bad after all 

R x