Becoming Healthy?

Firstly, I should mention that I'm not about to pile in loads of healthy recipes, boring chatter which may cause you to fall asleep whilst reading this; my main aim of this post is just to simply share my increasing love for food.
Me food?
Yes.

I personally have always thought that food and I wouldn't ever get along due to my eating disorder but I have proven myself wrong by finding and searching for different ways to cleanse my mind of the negativity.
One thing that doesn't really occur to you whilst being head first in a eating disorder is, 'if you're worried about the food you eat, concentrate on what you eat.'

At first that seems a little bizarre to hear and maybe at first not many will understand (or maybe you do!) but when I refer to the term 'concentrate what you eat', I literally mean that.
I can't tell you how many times I have stared at something and thought 'Oh theres so much bad stuff in there and there's so much fat! I'll put so much weight on!' etc etc.
But I was worrying to the point where I would only eat certain meals because I knew what was going into them, which then made me think 'Why not start cooking things your self and putting in things you desire?'

I knew at first, this decision might be a little too much simply because sometimes when I get home from work or just a general busy day, I literally have NO desire to cook something up due to lack of energy. (which I can agree with anyone because sometimes it's just easier to think  'order a blummin' chinese!)

But when I started to place things in perspective, these decisions would benefit me in more ways then I thought and usually, a bad meal can send my mind completely downhill. 
I've found out so far that the key to keeping myself healthy is organisation: keep the healthy foods in and keep the knowledge stocked in my mind.

This decision isn't something which was only decided yesterday because I myself have learnt the process is easier step by step and if I fire myself towards healthy foods all at once it becomes a little miserable.
I began this little change at the end of last year where I started with something called tea tox and I know for some that literally means: OH WEIGHT LOSS! and at first, it was the same thing for me, but after drinking it for an entire month, I noticed a much larger change within me: I was capable of noticing the balance inside of me (that sounds utterly bizarre so I'll explain!)
The first time I had noticed something change was about half way through December and with it being Christmas I helped myself to a little chocolate, however when it came to eating them, I didn't even get a quarter way in to the bag before my body physically complained at me and said 'that's enough!'
It was the strangest sensation I had ever had because usually, I could polish a full bag of minstrels no problem!
The next time was when I was at home and drinking Coke: I could only drink so much before my body complained and I was in need of water! And again, I could easily pass down numerous amounts without thought or hesitation.
With my sudden dislike to such things, I began drinking more water and since then, I drink copious amounts of the stuff every day! 

I look this over now and think 'That sounds bloody weird' but I remember the feeling I received when my body began to acknowledge the wrong and right things, and it was so strange overwhelming, that I fell in love with it! Now I'm glad as my lifestyle has positively improved.

What I have discussed are only tiny things but as I mentioned earlier, a process such as this can only be done by small steps and dedication, and although mine seem not even worthy of reading, I have noticed the largest difference in my lifestyle: my body feels physically better, I am gaining more motivation, my moods are levelling (SUCCESS) and I'm more eager to exercise!

Currently now, I spend a lot of my time searching for recipes, buying cook books and having a good mooch and seeing what sounds not only delicious but healthy too!
I will hopefully be piling my found recipes on to here so not only I can enjoy such things! Nevertheless, I am determined to continue this journey, in hopes it will change me for the better!

Love x